Just a minute
to jot down some feelings, even though I should be reading this short story for class in an hour.
School has been going so well, and I am honestly surprised at myself. Who knew that I could excel at the college level? I am so used to everyone telling me that I need to take baby steps, that I too convinced myself I wasn't capable of much. I have not gotten anything less than an A (lowest was a 92, second lowest, 95) on anything I have handed in thus far. And this makes me happy, but being lonely and having nothing to do or occupy my time other than my homework is making me upset. My life is in Tampa. I am sad to say it, because I am so grateful for my parents and everything, but I miss my friends. I didn't really realize it while I was there, but somewhere along the way, we became a family, and I don't like being away from them. It actually makes me sad in the same way that I would get sad missing my mother.
I have auditions in six days. Please pray for me. It's a narrow slot for women-- they are only taking two, and I don't know how good of a standing I have, considering the fact that DBC has an amazing theatre department. But seriously. Keep me in your prayers. Please and thank you.
I go back to Tampa for an audition for a movie this weekend. Another thing to wish me luck on. I cannot wait to see Jojo, JB, 'Gina, Steve, Sarah, etc... I am seriously living for the weekend.
Other bad things have happened, like nasty phone calls and text messages, and a year ago, I would have been able to step out of the situation and understand why they were being sent. But now? How can one stay so angry for so long? How can one "love" someone, but honestly wish them harm? I don't understand so many things about humankind, and I am trying to be a patient student and let everything come to me in time, but holy moly. This is insane. But, as a wise person once said, "one can dwell on the things we cannot change for only so long."
I am feeling so many different things right now, that I honestly feel like my heart and head are going to simultaneously explode. I hope you are all having a great week, I just needed to vent and breathe and make myself feel a little more sane.
School has been going so well, and I am honestly surprised at myself. Who knew that I could excel at the college level? I am so used to everyone telling me that I need to take baby steps, that I too convinced myself I wasn't capable of much. I have not gotten anything less than an A (lowest was a 92, second lowest, 95) on anything I have handed in thus far. And this makes me happy, but being lonely and having nothing to do or occupy my time other than my homework is making me upset. My life is in Tampa. I am sad to say it, because I am so grateful for my parents and everything, but I miss my friends. I didn't really realize it while I was there, but somewhere along the way, we became a family, and I don't like being away from them. It actually makes me sad in the same way that I would get sad missing my mother.
I have auditions in six days. Please pray for me. It's a narrow slot for women-- they are only taking two, and I don't know how good of a standing I have, considering the fact that DBC has an amazing theatre department. But seriously. Keep me in your prayers. Please and thank you.
I go back to Tampa for an audition for a movie this weekend. Another thing to wish me luck on. I cannot wait to see Jojo, JB, 'Gina, Steve, Sarah, etc... I am seriously living for the weekend.
Other bad things have happened, like nasty phone calls and text messages, and a year ago, I would have been able to step out of the situation and understand why they were being sent. But now? How can one stay so angry for so long? How can one "love" someone, but honestly wish them harm? I don't understand so many things about humankind, and I am trying to be a patient student and let everything come to me in time, but holy moly. This is insane. But, as a wise person once said, "one can dwell on the things we cannot change for only so long."
I am feeling so many different things right now, that I honestly feel like my heart and head are going to simultaneously explode. I hope you are all having a great week, I just needed to vent and breathe and make myself feel a little more sane.