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I wanted you to stay with me last night and come to the performance, but I want so badly for them to like me. It hurt really bad when you said I was crazy, it makes me think that you agree with everyone else. My parents don't know what they're doing and getting them involved never helps anything. I wish I could go back and change things and I wish I would've just opened my eyes and see how great I had it. But it's too late now. I leave in 5 days and I won't be back for another 30, this is the scariest thing that has ever happened. My parents said that when I come back if things aren't better then I'm leaving for good this time. But things won't be better because I won't be able to see you. You tell me to wait, but it's so hard, because in the mean time I have no one. Literally, no one. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for yelling and causing a big scene in front of my house. I'm sorry for the things my parents said to you. I'm sorry for telling you that I hate you and threatening you. I was scared and it seems like no one ever listens to me. I was so scared after you left. They're still yelling at me now. They said that I've ruined this family. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to die. This time next week we'll both be gone and it would be the most important day of my life.