yes ive been illusive and no this isnt a joke.
wow, its been so long since an entry.
about 6 mos.
but i havent forgotten about you.
i just thought i was past this, but now ive come to realize its therapeutic value.
so here it is. the journal entry that pieces everything back together.
the first day of the rest of your life.
i dont want to talk about the past.
vacation from school is great.
i got straight a's.
dowling is trashy.
but it makes me feel better about myself. so i guess thats good.
in general. i am happy.
i am moody, so happy never really stays long.
i miss tony. i can only apologize to myself for the negligence ive proved on the subject. everyones been posting these elaborate mental portraits of him, which i have not yet bestowed, i wont bash it, but i dont need to do that to show my appreciation and longing. i guess im just more personal about it. or maybe im just running from by biggest fear; emotion.
ive done my best to acknowledge my friends and get back to what i used to call normal. and i think ive been doing a darn good job. its gona be hard again when school starts, but at least im walking into that knowingly. im taking 2 sociology, philosophy, drama in western civ, and psychology this semester, thats alot of osophys.
i wana get a tatt soon with sara, margaret, jodette, sue and whoever elts is going.
baby just called me, oh boy, do i love him.
my house is freezing.
about 6 mos.
but i havent forgotten about you.
i just thought i was past this, but now ive come to realize its therapeutic value.
so here it is. the journal entry that pieces everything back together.
the first day of the rest of your life.
i dont want to talk about the past.
vacation from school is great.
i got straight a's.
dowling is trashy.
but it makes me feel better about myself. so i guess thats good.
in general. i am happy.
i am moody, so happy never really stays long.
i miss tony. i can only apologize to myself for the negligence ive proved on the subject. everyones been posting these elaborate mental portraits of him, which i have not yet bestowed, i wont bash it, but i dont need to do that to show my appreciation and longing. i guess im just more personal about it. or maybe im just running from by biggest fear; emotion.
ive done my best to acknowledge my friends and get back to what i used to call normal. and i think ive been doing a darn good job. its gona be hard again when school starts, but at least im walking into that knowingly. im taking 2 sociology, philosophy, drama in western civ, and psychology this semester, thats alot of osophys.
i wana get a tatt soon with sara, margaret, jodette, sue and whoever elts is going.
baby just called me, oh boy, do i love him.
my house is freezing.