Mother's Day part 2
Bob's mom finally called me. I won't be seeing Zoie or Bob until around 4. And, only for a short while. Tomorrow, they're leaving for Ohio for Bob's grandmother's funeral. It's not as if I had any say in this, or that I'm completely okay with them taking my daughter away for a week and out of the fucking state, at that. Also, Bob won't be working and has no money. So, consequentially I will be handed all bills once again, this month. They've sold the car I paid $1000 towards. My entire tax refund. And guess who doesn't get one dollar for it? Me. Because Bob has to pay his lawyer for his mistakes that have now become a burden to me. I'm so happy that I get to pay for all of Zoie's things, rent, phone bill, electric bill, daycare, food, hygenic shit, gas for his new car. I'm fucking ecstatic. And, I'm not even allowed to drive the fucking car and I'm being left alone for a week. I'M SO FUCKING GLAD THAT I AM THE ONE YOU SAY IS TAKING NO GOD DAMN RESPONSIBILTY, DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT OTHERS, AND COMPLAINS THAT BOB HAS TO PAY A WHOLE FUCKING 25 DOLLARS FOR DAYCARE. People are fucking shitheads. No, its always about me, right? Totally. When Bob is depressed his family gives him money and sends him to Bush Gardens, and buys him new cars every time he fucks one up, and comforts him when he gets arrested and pays for his lawyers. When these things happen to me I'm told to do something about it and that I'm lacking something or put myself in the situation. I have never said these things to anyone because I know they will just have something asshat-ish in response. I don't want confrontation. I just want fucking equality. Or maybe, I'm just tired of watching people get rewarded for being retards while I have to fend for myself. I don't know, man. I've just been a cunt lately. And for my own just reasons. I'm starting to realize I'm being taken advantage of and no one sees it. Because I am not some happy little bouncy fuckin ball who pretends to care and expresses my emotions or brings attention to my depression then I'm just some bitch who can compensate by handing out money.
Whateverrrrrrr.
Whateverrrrrrr.