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I'm calm now, after my last break down. I think it's the last for awhile. I hope it is. I don't think I can take much more.- Sigh - Derek comforted me, he made me feel happy. An emotion of which I've lacked for the past week. It was nice. I realize, that I'll stay by his side this time, be there for him. As a good friend, which may change someday, but for now, I am content with how things are.
I have to go enroll for school tomorrow. Oh goody.
I need to talk on the phone. I'm in desperate need of attention, and amusement. Maybe I'll call Shane. He's always willing to talk. Come to think of it I better not, I might stir feelings up again with him, I'm determined to stay "just good firends" with him, because I don't have any feelings towards him that way.
I'll shut up now. Bad memories coming on.
Goodnight.