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i know i should write when i get like this but i just don't even have anything to say. i feel selfish when i feel bad for myself because my problems are so petty that it just doesn't seem worth it to recognize. but i am human. and i have feelings.
i was thinking about it and when i was at lunch the other day with ryan and blue at vita cafe, which is our new backspace, i decided that if i am let down by a potential "boyfriend material" kind of guy and am left alone after x amount of weeks of dating this person again, i am going to become a nun. not because i want to be religious or anything like that. i just don't want to deal with anymore bullshit. i don't deserve it. why do i subject myself to it constantly? it's as simple as saying "no" but i just can't bring myself to do it. all that's changing now.
i'm so tired.
and i miss the butterflies i used to get when i'd kiss someone and really mean it
i was thinking about it and when i was at lunch the other day with ryan and blue at vita cafe, which is our new backspace, i decided that if i am let down by a potential "boyfriend material" kind of guy and am left alone after x amount of weeks of dating this person again, i am going to become a nun. not because i want to be religious or anything like that. i just don't want to deal with anymore bullshit. i don't deserve it. why do i subject myself to it constantly? it's as simple as saying "no" but i just can't bring myself to do it. all that's changing now.
i'm so tired.
and i miss the butterflies i used to get when i'd kiss someone and really mean it