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i'm confuuuuuuuuuuuuused. the fuck out of my head.
i love him. and i love us.
goddamn it. fuck. i love him too much for it all to end.
alex is worth all the pain in the world. that's exactly what i thought when he commanded/requested i be his girlfriend.
i thought my little heart couldn't take it, but it can. i've done it before and i can do it again.
i just wish i hadn't wasted everyone's time by asking for advice, because i'm going to do what i want to do. so. i'm sorry. i knew all of you just wanted what was best for me, and thought i deserved better.
... but he is better.
i love him. unconditionally.
i love him. and i love us.
goddamn it. fuck. i love him too much for it all to end.
alex is worth all the pain in the world. that's exactly what i thought when he commanded/requested i be his girlfriend.
i thought my little heart couldn't take it, but it can. i've done it before and i can do it again.
i just wish i hadn't wasted everyone's time by asking for advice, because i'm going to do what i want to do. so. i'm sorry. i knew all of you just wanted what was best for me, and thought i deserved better.
... but he is better.
i love him. unconditionally.