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I am so content with the amount of chocolate in my dorm room. It doesn't matter what cabinet I open, I have chocolate staring at me. I even eat it for meals. It's funny that chocolate and Mountain Dew are two of the staples in my diet. Other than those two, I eat pretty fuckinnn healthy. Or I have been at least.
Holy shit, lacrosse. I am so stoked to be playing for the U. We've only had one meeting, one practice, and one strength training afternoon, but holy shit holy shit holy shit, I am stoked. I've always rather assisted than scored myself. I loved playing high school lacrosse, but it didn't give me the opportunity to assist. In order to win, I had to hold onto the ball. Playing with girls who are as good as or better than me is going to be a fucking remarkable experience. I can't wait to grow as a player and person. I am 110% aware of how cliche that sounds. I don't care though; it's true. I am being coached for the first time ever. All through high school, my coach was forced to concentrate on those with greater problems playing than I. It was very rare for me to receive any kind of instruction. More often, I was the one helping to coach other girls. I just can't wait to see how much I can improve.
Lately I've been struggling to figure out what my passion in life is. Being around Max so much, I have grown envious at times that he knows what he just fucking loves and can do it whenever. I've talked with him about a few times; I just haven't been feeling a purpose in life lately. I also haven't been doing any sports lately. Jockie needs to be in sports. I feel most at home when I have a basketball in hand, a soccer ball at my feet, or my lacrosse goggles on.
This semester can't be like last semester. I need to be proactive. I'm contemplating playing intramural basketball. I have lacrosse. Max and I are growing closer and closer. I love him more and more every day. I don't think I necessarily love my classes, but they're OK. I have to get all A's. I plan on getting all A's. I've been waiting for myself to finally figure this out. I need to take my life into my own hands. Finallyyyyyyyyyy.
Holy shit, lacrosse. I am so stoked to be playing for the U. We've only had one meeting, one practice, and one strength training afternoon, but holy shit holy shit holy shit, I am stoked. I've always rather assisted than scored myself. I loved playing high school lacrosse, but it didn't give me the opportunity to assist. In order to win, I had to hold onto the ball. Playing with girls who are as good as or better than me is going to be a fucking remarkable experience. I can't wait to grow as a player and person. I am 110% aware of how cliche that sounds. I don't care though; it's true. I am being coached for the first time ever. All through high school, my coach was forced to concentrate on those with greater problems playing than I. It was very rare for me to receive any kind of instruction. More often, I was the one helping to coach other girls. I just can't wait to see how much I can improve.
Lately I've been struggling to figure out what my passion in life is. Being around Max so much, I have grown envious at times that he knows what he just fucking loves and can do it whenever. I've talked with him about a few times; I just haven't been feeling a purpose in life lately. I also haven't been doing any sports lately. Jockie needs to be in sports. I feel most at home when I have a basketball in hand, a soccer ball at my feet, or my lacrosse goggles on.
This semester can't be like last semester. I need to be proactive. I'm contemplating playing intramural basketball. I have lacrosse. Max and I are growing closer and closer. I love him more and more every day. I don't think I necessarily love my classes, but they're OK. I have to get all A's. I plan on getting all A's. I've been waiting for myself to finally figure this out. I need to take my life into my own hands. Finallyyyyyyyyyy.