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I find myself slipping. More & more things need to be done so I can accomplish what I really want, yet I continue to find ways to disregard everything just so I can do something small & pointless for a few hours. Take yesterday as an example- I had over $150; & since I'm out of a job I'd watch my money & spend it wisely. NO. I spent $12 on drinks & cigs. Then I bought a $20 shirt from AmericanEagle (wtf did I do that for?). OH Yeah- I spent $13 on a cd too. I cannot continue to do this to myself. Today was supposed to be an amazing day, full of exciting new things & people, but of course I ruin it. It doesn't matter much, my mom already shot down my desire to do something great today. Something nobody knows about. Something for me.
Trying to be selfish is hard. Because when I am- I regret every point of it.
Trying to be selfish is hard. Because when I am- I regret every point of it.