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im in a horrible mood. i can't sleep. i'm not thirsty but i keep drinking. i'm not hungry but the fucking popcorn in the kitchen looks good as fuck. i'm terribly sleepy- yet can't sleep (again). i need a fucking drink. i wanna get really drunk. or really fucking stoned. i need to get out of myself for once; lord knows it's been a while. i need a cigarette. i need to get my ears pierced again. i need to stop needing things. i want to see jayson. i miss him terribly. i don't want to wait until after work tomorrow. i want him NOW! i love him so much. but mostly i really really really want a fucking smoke and a drink. someone please tell me to get fucked up and everything will be okay. i'll be okay.