we will drive we can't fly
so ladies & gentlemen, i found out my FIFTEEN YEAR OLD COUSIN is a smokin' screwin' cuttin' kind of gal. her mom found her online journal, who relayed it to my g-ma, who relayed it to me. i read it & i wanted to cry. i believe i started crying. she was shipped off to boarding school last year & came back at the end of this school year because she was cutting herself. nobody knew what else until just now. fucking boarding schools are for shit. rich kids with too much money to buy drugs & fuck around all day. she's fifteen. i wish i could've been there for her when she needed me. i wanted to see her at the hospital but nobody said anything to me. my gma read a few entries & said 'i think she's depressed.' i don't think my gma understands the cutting or else nobody told her about abby or myself. i know my mom never mentioned my cutting to my gma. she'd freak out. i suppose she doesn't know anything about abby. it's just hard to swallow. she's fifteen & she's talking about taking nearly six hits of x & screwing guys. it makes me sad to read. i see a lot of me in her minus the screwing & half the drugs. it's always the quiet ones. abby's a beautiful intelligent girl but i know my saying that wouldn't put a dent in her mind. i really wish we could've just hung out more. i don't know. it fucking sucks because she's so fucking young & now she's lost everything that might have any real value to her including her faith. & there's not much anyone can do about it unless she's willing to change.
in other news, i'm graduating in a few short weeks. i got interviewed at fantastic sams. i know what you're thinking but i'm a fresh graduate & i need some steady experience & a steady income. & insurance. once i graduate, i'm off my parents insurance. so hello fantastic sams. i'll stay there a year or so, get a car hopefully by next year have an apt. with laura & enough comfort to perhaps go into booth renting or at least a different salon. who knows? everyone there was very nice & it's full-service & whatnot. i guess we'll see. i'm graduating soon, that's all i care about.
i want to see firewhenready & the forecast so bad. i just bought the forecast cd & it's amazing. i could listen to it all day. but i have an addictive personality, which isn't to say it's not a great album. i'd encourage everyone to go out & take a listen. PLEASE COME TO INDY!
xo
in other news, i'm graduating in a few short weeks. i got interviewed at fantastic sams. i know what you're thinking but i'm a fresh graduate & i need some steady experience & a steady income. & insurance. once i graduate, i'm off my parents insurance. so hello fantastic sams. i'll stay there a year or so, get a car hopefully by next year have an apt. with laura & enough comfort to perhaps go into booth renting or at least a different salon. who knows? everyone there was very nice & it's full-service & whatnot. i guess we'll see. i'm graduating soon, that's all i care about.
i want to see firewhenready & the forecast so bad. i just bought the forecast cd & it's amazing. i could listen to it all day. but i have an addictive personality, which isn't to say it's not a great album. i'd encourage everyone to go out & take a listen. PLEASE COME TO INDY!
xo