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So, The actual story:
I was looking at Mike's friend's LJ and came across his old one.
I was reading it and started seeing things about a girlfriend.
A girlfriend from Ohio that he loved.
I looked at the date and coincidentally it was while we had been talking.
Pretty seriously I might add.
It was also right after we had a pretty serious talk.
I asked him what he really wanted out of this.
And he said he wanted to be with me.
I told him how I have been lied to a lot by boyfriends in the past.
And how I hate it more than anything in the world.
He told me he wouldn't lie to me or hurt me.
The whole time knowing that he was, infact, lying to me.
His journal also said a lot of other stuff along those lines.
So, I told him I saw it and called him when I got home from school.
He explained it all to me.
He said he was dating her, but they had an "open relationship" type thing.
He said he wanted to tell me but couldn't.
(Sounds a lot like Andy? Yeah I know.)
Well, I was obviously very angry.
Not to mention extremely upset.
Then later, I found out some other interesting news.
News that, unfortunately, I am not going to share.
It's not fair to everyone involed.
But anyways, That caused a lot of problems, too.
So, After being a complete bitch,
And going through a million different moods,
I decided to give him another chance.
I know it's insanely stupid of me.
But we really weren't going out.
And I will regret giving up and never knowing what could have happened.
What if he never would have done it again?
I wouldn't know.
I know that I will feel like a huge idiot if it does happen again,
And I will be so much more angry and upset than I was today,
But I like him too much to not take that risk.
As of now, We are starting over.
But only after I told him over and over again how much I hate liars.
So, He's on probation, I suppose.
And if it happens again,
That boy will not have a penis anymore.
Currently, we are trying to deal with the other problem at hand.
But we have each other.
Maybe I made the wrong choice.
And I'll get the "I told you so"'s.
But maybe I made the right choice,
And everyone else will get them.
I hope to God I made the right choice,
Because I like this boy. So much.
And I want it to work. I really do.
All I know is that we have bigger fish to fry.
And at least we are in it together...
I was looking at Mike's friend's LJ and came across his old one.
I was reading it and started seeing things about a girlfriend.
A girlfriend from Ohio that he loved.
I looked at the date and coincidentally it was while we had been talking.
Pretty seriously I might add.
It was also right after we had a pretty serious talk.
I asked him what he really wanted out of this.
And he said he wanted to be with me.
I told him how I have been lied to a lot by boyfriends in the past.
And how I hate it more than anything in the world.
He told me he wouldn't lie to me or hurt me.
The whole time knowing that he was, infact, lying to me.
His journal also said a lot of other stuff along those lines.
So, I told him I saw it and called him when I got home from school.
He explained it all to me.
He said he was dating her, but they had an "open relationship" type thing.
He said he wanted to tell me but couldn't.
(Sounds a lot like Andy? Yeah I know.)
Well, I was obviously very angry.
Not to mention extremely upset.
Then later, I found out some other interesting news.
News that, unfortunately, I am not going to share.
It's not fair to everyone involed.
But anyways, That caused a lot of problems, too.
So, After being a complete bitch,
And going through a million different moods,
I decided to give him another chance.
I know it's insanely stupid of me.
But we really weren't going out.
And I will regret giving up and never knowing what could have happened.
What if he never would have done it again?
I wouldn't know.
I know that I will feel like a huge idiot if it does happen again,
And I will be so much more angry and upset than I was today,
But I like him too much to not take that risk.
As of now, We are starting over.
But only after I told him over and over again how much I hate liars.
So, He's on probation, I suppose.
And if it happens again,
That boy will not have a penis anymore.
Currently, we are trying to deal with the other problem at hand.
But we have each other.
Maybe I made the wrong choice.
And I'll get the "I told you so"'s.
But maybe I made the right choice,
And everyone else will get them.
I hope to God I made the right choice,
Because I like this boy. So much.
And I want it to work. I really do.
All I know is that we have bigger fish to fry.
And at least we are in it together...