hmmm...
well today was pretty boring
the night was excitingly depressing on my part let' see where do i start..
- came home no one here.
- fell down the stairs cuz i tripped over the cat = \
- calLed matt( the only good part of my night :)
- mom call's says grandma's dieing. in the hospital
- i can;t see her cuz the doctors said i can't :S
- have to work so im gunna be depressed at work.
- doctors said shes lucky if she makes it to tommarow,.
but in a way im happy shes passing away becuz i kno shes given up and i no she terribly misses my gradfather so basically she has no reason! so she thinks? but i need her she was alway's there for me.
i wish things were diffrent through i wish she was like everyone elses grandmas but she can't be cuz shes a diabetic and she only has one leg and 2 toes cuz she got the rest amputaited. she has a skin problem and she is forced to live in her bed becuz of her. illnesses.
therefore i never get to shop with her,bake,do crafts,do anything tht has to do with her being my grandma. shes been like tht since i was born and before tht i feel bad for my mum becuz she was like tht when my mom was a kid..
and shes not even my mums real mom. my mom was addopted after she was born she was addoped at 2months.
I NEED HELP SOMEONE NEEDS TO MAKE ME STOP CRYING ALL THESE TEARS YOU KNOW I DON'T EVEN CRY HALF THE TIME FOR ANY REASON I THINK I HAVE SOME SORD OR MANIC DEPRESSION CUZ IM ALWAYS SAD AND WHEN IM HAPPY ITS ONLY A FACE I PUT ON.
the night was excitingly depressing on my part let' see where do i start..
- came home no one here.
- fell down the stairs cuz i tripped over the cat = \
- calLed matt( the only good part of my night :)
- mom call's says grandma's dieing. in the hospital
- i can;t see her cuz the doctors said i can't :S
- have to work so im gunna be depressed at work.
- doctors said shes lucky if she makes it to tommarow,.
but in a way im happy shes passing away becuz i kno shes given up and i no she terribly misses my gradfather so basically she has no reason! so she thinks? but i need her she was alway's there for me.
i wish things were diffrent through i wish she was like everyone elses grandmas but she can't be cuz shes a diabetic and she only has one leg and 2 toes cuz she got the rest amputaited. she has a skin problem and she is forced to live in her bed becuz of her. illnesses.
therefore i never get to shop with her,bake,do crafts,do anything tht has to do with her being my grandma. shes been like tht since i was born and before tht i feel bad for my mum becuz she was like tht when my mom was a kid..
and shes not even my mums real mom. my mom was addopted after she was born she was addoped at 2months.
I NEED HELP SOMEONE NEEDS TO MAKE ME STOP CRYING ALL THESE TEARS YOU KNOW I DON'T EVEN CRY HALF THE TIME FOR ANY REASON I THINK I HAVE SOME SORD OR MANIC DEPRESSION CUZ IM ALWAYS SAD AND WHEN IM HAPPY ITS ONLY A FACE I PUT ON.