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I called my parents bluff. Today, I don't know what will happen. They will either say "Hey Chris, we're getting you a car so you could get a job." or they could say "Hey Chris, get the fuck out of the house. Call us to tell us where you are going". First of all, why would I call them if they kick me out??? I told them that if they ever kicked me out again, I wouldn't come back and they wouldn't hear from me anymore. The only reason I came back last time is because my Mom came to me in tears telling me I should come back soon. I proved once that I could live without them, I could prove it again. It would make everything a lot harder but what isn't hard enough right now?
My friend Megan quoted me yesterday and it made me smile.
"Everyone has their faults but when you find someone and can't see their faults as downfalls, that would be the one right there."
Of course, the feeling would have to be mutual in order for anything to work.
Its pretty much true. I've been in love once. We would probrobly still be together today if she didn't live in California. That was the weirdest but most right relationship I ever had. Which is kind of pathetic. We went out for 10 months living 2000 miles away. We talked on the phone for at least an hour everyday. We sent eachother letters and pictures. On birthdays/holidays, we would send eachother gifts. We could see or touch eachother with was frustrating because when you're in love, the desire of physical affection comes along with it (duh). We were really in love but we had to put an end to it because it was way to stressful to keep it going. We're just really good friends now. I still love her but not in the romantic way I did. I love her as a close friend. Actually, I'd consider her my best friend.
I guess thats kind of why none of my relationships have worked since me and her broke up. Its like I want that feeling again. So I try too hard and push the girl away to go cheat on me haha (with one exception!). I guess the only way it would work is if someone else wanted that same feeling to. Its kind of hard when you've never felt it before... and if you havn't, you're missing out on something wonderful. Nothing is better than waking up everyday with a smile on your face, feeling invincable because you know someone loves you and everything just kind of goes your way (for the most part).
haha This post was meant to be a paragraph long. Opps. I just started typing and it got out of control.
My friend Megan quoted me yesterday and it made me smile.
"Everyone has their faults but when you find someone and can't see their faults as downfalls, that would be the one right there."
Of course, the feeling would have to be mutual in order for anything to work.
Its pretty much true. I've been in love once. We would probrobly still be together today if she didn't live in California. That was the weirdest but most right relationship I ever had. Which is kind of pathetic. We went out for 10 months living 2000 miles away. We talked on the phone for at least an hour everyday. We sent eachother letters and pictures. On birthdays/holidays, we would send eachother gifts. We could see or touch eachother with was frustrating because when you're in love, the desire of physical affection comes along with it (duh). We were really in love but we had to put an end to it because it was way to stressful to keep it going. We're just really good friends now. I still love her but not in the romantic way I did. I love her as a close friend. Actually, I'd consider her my best friend.
I guess thats kind of why none of my relationships have worked since me and her broke up. Its like I want that feeling again. So I try too hard and push the girl away to go cheat on me haha (with one exception!). I guess the only way it would work is if someone else wanted that same feeling to. Its kind of hard when you've never felt it before... and if you havn't, you're missing out on something wonderful. Nothing is better than waking up everyday with a smile on your face, feeling invincable because you know someone loves you and everything just kind of goes your way (for the most part).
haha This post was meant to be a paragraph long. Opps. I just started typing and it got out of control.