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I was all cosy in bed watching a cheesy Hillary Duff movie (God I love her)but then I got all contemplative and felt like I should write in here, to give an update on my life and review how the past year has been.
I guess in one word the last year has been crazy.
I was single for pretty much the first time in my life and it was just crazy. At first I had no idea what to do with myself then i hooked up with someone I shouldnt have who turned out to be a retard, but in retrospect I had fun. During that period work was insanely awesome, I got pretty close to Tom and Rhio and going to work was a pleasure. Things kinda get blurry from then onwards. I can't remember what happened first, meeting Jessie or Hannah dieing. I remember getting my tattoos and I think that night I met Jessie. I really can't remember. But meeting Jessie came at the most perfect time, i really needed a friend who had similar interests to me and we had amazing times going to switch and next and dancing and being just really crazy. I did think she was too crazy for me but I still loved her neverless.
I had to work one night and was contemplating on whether I should go to switch one night. I ended up not going and because of that I met ryan. Ah Ryan, he has caused so much head fucking. I was instantly drawn to him the moment I started talking to him. That night I stayed up until 6 am talking to him. I was babbling on to him about matt and he was telling me about issues he had with some fake whore. We grew really close really fast. We spoke for like hours a day. Every minute I was home it was spent talking to ryan. I fell for him soo fucking quickly. We finally met 2 weeks later and I was all bummed about Matt not wanting to be with me and then Ryan goes to me "Can I make out with you to make matt jealous?" I can't even remember what I said but the next thing I know his kissing me and I become oblivous to everything around me.
After that things went downhill really fast. There was constant interfering thanks to a particular girl named jess. ryans fickness, my mistakes and ryans constant standing me up. Any smart girl would have given up. I didn't I couldn't. Everyone told me not to bother and that I could do better and that I shouldn't be chasing an 18 year old so hard. I couldn't help it I wanted him in my life. He finally told me that he wanted to be with Jess. I asked if we could still be friends his like sure. On Decemeber the 8th ryan and I deciced to meet in the city just to hang out as friends. We met up at 1pm and went and sat in the park. We sat there eating chupa chups and talking about random stuff. We just felt so comfortable with each other. I lay there in the "sorching" sun crapping on about Hannah and my family and what not, he was talking about his friends and his life. It really was the best day ever. He tells me now that he really wanted to kiss me but was too shy. I wish he did. It would have made the most perfect day even more perfect.. At dusk ryan rolled us a joint. I had two tokes and felt a light buss. I remember walking around the city afterwards not saying a word but feeling so happy. Jessie called me and it signaled that I had to go home...I didn't want that day to end.
Weeks passed. I cant remembered what happened. I went to Summadayze with Lisa. Danced to Bob Sinclars set as the rain started to pour and relieve us of the 43 degree heat that carried over from the night before. It was the best. I can't describe how good it was. Unfortuanlty the rain didnt stop and we headed home soaked as rats. LOL we went to shine cafe afterwards and made a huge puddle on their floor.
Anyway Ryan and I went to see the Mars Volta together and he asked me if i'd prefer the title of girlfriend. I made him ask 3 times the poor thing because I couldnt hear him. I was in front of the speaker! I smiled mumbled yes and the rest is history...which I'll leave for another time because Im quite sick of typing on this keyboard as all the letters are worn off. I have so much more to say. I have changed sooo much the past year. There has been so much drama I could write all the of OC's story lines for the next year.
Plus Ryan just got home from work and I want cuddles ^_^
I guess in one word the last year has been crazy.
I was single for pretty much the first time in my life and it was just crazy. At first I had no idea what to do with myself then i hooked up with someone I shouldnt have who turned out to be a retard, but in retrospect I had fun. During that period work was insanely awesome, I got pretty close to Tom and Rhio and going to work was a pleasure. Things kinda get blurry from then onwards. I can't remember what happened first, meeting Jessie or Hannah dieing. I remember getting my tattoos and I think that night I met Jessie. I really can't remember. But meeting Jessie came at the most perfect time, i really needed a friend who had similar interests to me and we had amazing times going to switch and next and dancing and being just really crazy. I did think she was too crazy for me but I still loved her neverless.
I had to work one night and was contemplating on whether I should go to switch one night. I ended up not going and because of that I met ryan. Ah Ryan, he has caused so much head fucking. I was instantly drawn to him the moment I started talking to him. That night I stayed up until 6 am talking to him. I was babbling on to him about matt and he was telling me about issues he had with some fake whore. We grew really close really fast. We spoke for like hours a day. Every minute I was home it was spent talking to ryan. I fell for him soo fucking quickly. We finally met 2 weeks later and I was all bummed about Matt not wanting to be with me and then Ryan goes to me "Can I make out with you to make matt jealous?" I can't even remember what I said but the next thing I know his kissing me and I become oblivous to everything around me.
After that things went downhill really fast. There was constant interfering thanks to a particular girl named jess. ryans fickness, my mistakes and ryans constant standing me up. Any smart girl would have given up. I didn't I couldn't. Everyone told me not to bother and that I could do better and that I shouldn't be chasing an 18 year old so hard. I couldn't help it I wanted him in my life. He finally told me that he wanted to be with Jess. I asked if we could still be friends his like sure. On Decemeber the 8th ryan and I deciced to meet in the city just to hang out as friends. We met up at 1pm and went and sat in the park. We sat there eating chupa chups and talking about random stuff. We just felt so comfortable with each other. I lay there in the "sorching" sun crapping on about Hannah and my family and what not, he was talking about his friends and his life. It really was the best day ever. He tells me now that he really wanted to kiss me but was too shy. I wish he did. It would have made the most perfect day even more perfect.. At dusk ryan rolled us a joint. I had two tokes and felt a light buss. I remember walking around the city afterwards not saying a word but feeling so happy. Jessie called me and it signaled that I had to go home...I didn't want that day to end.
Weeks passed. I cant remembered what happened. I went to Summadayze with Lisa. Danced to Bob Sinclars set as the rain started to pour and relieve us of the 43 degree heat that carried over from the night before. It was the best. I can't describe how good it was. Unfortuanlty the rain didnt stop and we headed home soaked as rats. LOL we went to shine cafe afterwards and made a huge puddle on their floor.
Anyway Ryan and I went to see the Mars Volta together and he asked me if i'd prefer the title of girlfriend. I made him ask 3 times the poor thing because I couldnt hear him. I was in front of the speaker! I smiled mumbled yes and the rest is history...which I'll leave for another time because Im quite sick of typing on this keyboard as all the letters are worn off. I have so much more to say. I have changed sooo much the past year. There has been so much drama I could write all the of OC's story lines for the next year.
Plus Ryan just got home from work and I want cuddles ^_^