you've got me wrapped around your finger.
Nicholas Benjamin Taylor , Saturday , December 30 , 2006
As you lay in the hospital bed right next to me , trying to deal with the hand that you've been dealt , I am suddenly reminded of all the things we've expierienced in the short amount of time we've spent together making memories. You're the strength in my heart strings & the reason I wake up in the morning . You are so strong. I know I don't tell you enough. You're going to pull through this and come out shinning , I know it. But deep down there is a deep rooted fear that I won't grow old with you. & that there will always be a sadness in my soul , a hole in my heart and a pain in the pit of my stomach. I feel asleep earlier right next to you.I dreamed that 20 years from now , when I was married to man who's face I couldn't see ,as we drove through the napa valley countryside for our anniversary ,I saw your face. You smiled , with all your perfect straight teeth and mouthed the words " love you , & i mean it ". You've been having me replay "linger" on your mac book all day.I think we all , myself , the doctors,the nurses and the patients, have all the words down cold.I love that you say you love this song.Even though I know the only reason you keep having me play it is because you know I love it.I've been writing you cute notes all day. Instead of going to get more paper , i decided to write you a note here. I just want you to know that I love you more than anything ,and no matter what happens you'll always be my heart . I'm not leaving you , and if it were suitable with your doctor , I'd go into the operating room with you and hold your cold , clamy hands. You'll always be my heart.You know that. We have a long life together , so hold on tight.
-B.
As you lay in the hospital bed right next to me , trying to deal with the hand that you've been dealt , I am suddenly reminded of all the things we've expierienced in the short amount of time we've spent together making memories. You're the strength in my heart strings & the reason I wake up in the morning . You are so strong. I know I don't tell you enough. You're going to pull through this and come out shinning , I know it. But deep down there is a deep rooted fear that I won't grow old with you. & that there will always be a sadness in my soul , a hole in my heart and a pain in the pit of my stomach. I feel asleep earlier right next to you.I dreamed that 20 years from now , when I was married to man who's face I couldn't see ,as we drove through the napa valley countryside for our anniversary ,I saw your face. You smiled , with all your perfect straight teeth and mouthed the words " love you , & i mean it ". You've been having me replay "linger" on your mac book all day.I think we all , myself , the doctors,the nurses and the patients, have all the words down cold.I love that you say you love this song.Even though I know the only reason you keep having me play it is because you know I love it.I've been writing you cute notes all day. Instead of going to get more paper , i decided to write you a note here. I just want you to know that I love you more than anything ,and no matter what happens you'll always be my heart . I'm not leaving you , and if it were suitable with your doctor , I'd go into the operating room with you and hold your cold , clamy hands. You'll always be my heart.You know that. We have a long life together , so hold on tight.
-B.