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so today was the best at sarah's house today, she has a huge house and everything that we did while we were there was so much fun! ;] i think that im going over there again tomorrow and in some ways, so i don't feel alone and what not. today was so horrible once i got home. one word, michael. i don't understand how what one person says can change a whole persons outlook on their life. yes, i will admit it, i did think about cutting today because that's just about how fucked up things got. if you were me, you would wanna do way worse then just cut, yeah sure, i mean, i am wasting my time to type this which no one will read anyways, but whatever. i hear that people would care if i did and if i did anything bad to myself so i just thought about it in positive terms and i realized that cutting is not the solution to anything that's going on right now. sorryguys. =[ i think i could have lost everything today, my friends, the trust i have and receive, and just about everything else that goes along those lines. but you know, no one could care less so ill shut up now. =]