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You know I've been thinking about the whole Taylor thing
And even though I have zero romantic interest in him
and I kind of think he's a jackass and all
but I'm still very sucked into his whole, "I'm an asshole, and you are STILL going to kiss me."
Of course I'm like that with everyone. I'm the type who guys will be like, "fine, want me gone? i'm leaving." and I'm like, "no no get back here you know thats not what I meant"
even if we're just joking around. the only time i've ever let someone walk away from that was...
Nick.
Of course. I think it was me just being like, "fine you know what? im tired of chasing you. its stressful and the only reason youre like this is because you know im always going to beg you back, and im fed up, and you want me? come fucking get it."
But I remember it was hard. It wasnt a big Hallelujah chorus thing where I suddenly knew whatr I had to do and there was vanessa carlton in the background and a *cue credits*. It was just him walking away and me not calling him back.
I think he might have even turned back and came back or at least been like, "youre not gonna call me back?"
I dunno.
But TAYLOR. Sorry got offtrack.
But its like, I sometimes feel like I'm just gifted. Or overly couragous.
I think my issue is that I try harder than most girls
Which is not a good thing.
But it's one of the only talents I've got(though others I'm sure would get guys faster if they knew for sure I had them. Which I do. But they dont know for sure. Well
Most of them)
But its like...never mind. I had zero point to be made in this entry.
it is now 4:00 and I'm tired and I want to sleep. good night.
And even though I have zero romantic interest in him
and I kind of think he's a jackass and all
but I'm still very sucked into his whole, "I'm an asshole, and you are STILL going to kiss me."
Of course I'm like that with everyone. I'm the type who guys will be like, "fine, want me gone? i'm leaving." and I'm like, "no no get back here you know thats not what I meant"
even if we're just joking around. the only time i've ever let someone walk away from that was...
Nick.
Of course. I think it was me just being like, "fine you know what? im tired of chasing you. its stressful and the only reason youre like this is because you know im always going to beg you back, and im fed up, and you want me? come fucking get it."
But I remember it was hard. It wasnt a big Hallelujah chorus thing where I suddenly knew whatr I had to do and there was vanessa carlton in the background and a *cue credits*. It was just him walking away and me not calling him back.
I think he might have even turned back and came back or at least been like, "youre not gonna call me back?"
I dunno.
But TAYLOR. Sorry got offtrack.
But its like, I sometimes feel like I'm just gifted. Or overly couragous.
I think my issue is that I try harder than most girls
Which is not a good thing.
But it's one of the only talents I've got(though others I'm sure would get guys faster if they knew for sure I had them. Which I do. But they dont know for sure. Well
Most of them)
But its like...never mind. I had zero point to be made in this entry.
it is now 4:00 and I'm tired and I want to sleep. good night.