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Right now, I really miss ballet / dance.
the one place, where i could tell someone how i feel, without saying anything, let out my anger, hurt, frustration, and happiness, just by turns, or leaps, anything, feeling frustrated on my off days, and being overjoyed on my "on" days, but either way I was always leaving the dance floor feeling rejuvenated, and like i'm on top of the world, and ten times better then when i walked in the door.
right now i feel like i'm holding so much back, and so much in, that i'm on the verge of exploding.
I want to have that strive for it again, I want to strive to be better than i was, I want that push to do one more turn, balance for longer, split for longer, and so on.
i miss the attitude it required, i miss the strength you needed to have, i miss the feeling of dancing.
i miss the feeling while i danced.
we'll see what happens; i'm praying about it.
on another note: i'm really quite frustrated, with alot of things. but hopefully things will go back to normal soon.
i don't feel close to the people i was close to before, and closer to people i wasn't.
idontknow.
i'm going out with kelly.
later guys.
the one place, where i could tell someone how i feel, without saying anything, let out my anger, hurt, frustration, and happiness, just by turns, or leaps, anything, feeling frustrated on my off days, and being overjoyed on my "on" days, but either way I was always leaving the dance floor feeling rejuvenated, and like i'm on top of the world, and ten times better then when i walked in the door.
right now i feel like i'm holding so much back, and so much in, that i'm on the verge of exploding.
I want to have that strive for it again, I want to strive to be better than i was, I want that push to do one more turn, balance for longer, split for longer, and so on.
i miss the attitude it required, i miss the strength you needed to have, i miss the feeling of dancing.
i miss the feeling while i danced.
we'll see what happens; i'm praying about it.
on another note: i'm really quite frustrated, with alot of things. but hopefully things will go back to normal soon.
i don't feel close to the people i was close to before, and closer to people i wasn't.
idontknow.
i'm going out with kelly.
later guys.