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have you ever wondered which hurts the most? saying something and wishing you hadn't, or saying nothing and wishing you had? i guess the most important things are the hardest to say. don't be afride to tell someone you love them, if you do, they might break your heart, but if you don't, you might break their's.. have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were afride of losing what you already had with that person? your heart deicedes who it likes & who doesnt, you cant tell your heart what to do, it does it on its own.. when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. have you ever wanted to love someone with every thing you had but that other person was too afride to let you? or has somoene loved you & you were too afride to love them back, too many of us stay walled up because we are too afride to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? we tell lies when we are afriade.. afride of what we don't know, afraide of what ohers will think, afride of what will be found out about us.. but every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have or could have done, what would you do if everytime you fell in love you had to say goodbye? what would you do if everytime you wanted someone they would never be there? what would you do if your best friend died tommorw and you never got to tell them how you felt? what would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldent have them? wat would you do if you never got the chance to say i am friends with all of my family and they know i love them? people live, but people die. A lot of people forget about themselves, but most importantly their friend's, people's feeling's. I can't tell you how many storys i've heard about someones best friend hooking up with there boyfriends, trying to, flirting with them, telling there best friends secrets, talking shit, hurting people that they "swear they love & care oh so much about" I don't get how people think it's okay to do thing's like that. It's good to do thing's for yourself once & a while, but I mean, fucking with people's relationship's just never is right, no matter what. And i'm not even speaking about myself & my past problems, i'm speaking about at least 3 of my other friend's that have the exact problem's I had & have. Trust & faith are two really important thing's in my life, I believe that everyone deserves 2nd chances, and to always have faith & bring out the best in people. I need to have some sort of amount of trust in a realationship because if theres none there, theres no relationship. It's sad that ive gotten hurt by people I cared so much about, so many.. too many times, that now I can count about 10 outta 50 friend's I can trust with my entire life. I know people say thing's like "Omg i love you so much!" "thank's for helping me!" But I just wanted to make this shout out to all the people that havent talked shit, or if they have and I found out they stopped after that, or for the people that make me feel better and laugh, the non-drama girl's and boys, I apriciate it soo much when you guy's are there for me, I need people like you. & God do I apricate it more then I could ever explain, so I want to say thank you, god knows i wouldnt be here right now if it werent for some of you and i'm sure you know exactly who you are. I love you. I want everyone to stand up for themselves and if someones hurting you, do something about it, because the second, the second you let a person walk all over you, it's all down hill from there, and pretty soon you'll be this depressed, super paranoid girl that think's everyones out to get her, and that your never good enough for anything or anyone and you deserve bad thing's & pain. I don't want any of you to feel that way. EVER. No matter what you've done. Some people say that i'm paranoid, and we'll one of those people that said that to me, is the reason I am paranoid, How can I not be? When people like my best friend's screw me over more then I could ever imagine? I just want everyone to know, if you have love, hold on to it for as long as you can, I know how it feels to have someone you love and to have them love you back, and it's the most amazing feeling in the world, and i don't know what id do without him. And for the people who either havent found love yet, or loves someone that is taken or just dosent love you back, if it's the first one, just try your best to be happy for them, that's all you can do, if you love them, you want them to be happy, & it's clear that they are, that's one thing we all need to learn to not be selfish about. But if it's the second one, take the risk let them know how you feel, but don't for one minute think that it's because your "too fat" "too tall to short" "not pretty" because i can honestly say i do not have one ugly friend. And they're all awesome, because if they werent they wouldnt be my friends lol each and everyone of you have something good about you & don't ever let anyone make you think differently. I just wanted you all to know how much I love you & hope you know that no matter what day, time or place I will try my best to ALWAYS be there for you, and if ive been a shitty friend to you in the past, words cant express how sorry I am. I Love you all<3