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this computer is retarded. it would let me use the rich text editor. anyway, justin now has a thing with marissa. it really hurts me because i still like him more than anything. i wanted so badly for something to work out between us. and now...its like we never even knew each other. he said to me that im a bitter mean person...and that line has been running through my head over and over. and the more i think about it, the more right it becomes. i am bitter, and i dont mean to be. i feel like im left out of everything and now matter what i do, it will never be as good as what everyone else is doing. im sick of feeling inferior, so i try to make myself look better than people to somehow help that, but it doesnt ever work. i just want to be happy, i just want to be loved and accepted. i dont think that is too much to ask. i just want justin to give me a chance. what hes seen of me isnt who i truly am. so what if i got pissed off that hes been lying to me, i think its a normal reaction, dont you? fuck. well, im going to go back on myspace. <3