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its like, everyday i float form place to place, but i dont belong anywhere. i think thats what im looking for, somewhere to belong. im quite distressed because i think that me and kyle really dont have what we thought we did. my mom starts chemotherapy today, and pretty soon she'll lose her hair, and be hella weak and sick, and its going to be awful. theres only a 50/50 chance that chemo will kill the cancer. so i could still lose her. its the worst feeling in the world. i try to stay distracted and busy so i dont have to thin kabout it, but its always there in the back of my mind.