BLAH BLAH BLAH
Yesterday was pretty much amazing.
I finally got to hang out with Erica Teves.
We went to the swansea mall.
I bought plugs.
She bought christmas presents.
Larissa was there and that was the first time I met her.
We went to Walmart and tried to find a heater that they didn't have.
Then we visited Sara(who i met for the first time too) at Shaws.
We went to taco bell before she got out of work and then we picked her up.
We brought Larissa home then we went back to Shaws.
We bought weed.
Dropped Sara off back at Shaws and then the 2 Erica's smoked.
Pretty sweet story for the first time you actually hang out with them.
Haha.
Speaking of which, I miss Mel.
I also miss AshGiff.
I need to hang out with them.
I hate these up and down feelings.
I was so happy yesterday and now I just feel awful.
I don't know why.
I miss him kind of.
I don't want to though.
I like being friends with him.
I think the events from the other day are now hitting me.
I'm not thinking about them it's just that I guess I didn't think it was a big deal at the time and now I'm finally realizing things.
I He was the first boy I liked in the longest time.
And I didn't think I was ready for a relationship until now.
I miss being in relationships.
I think for me, being in a relationship is like a security blanket.
You won't have anything to worry about because you have that other person.
And you know that when no one else will listen, they will.
Having that sort of 'security' is a good feeling.
But I guess it's not my time to enjoy being happy anymore.
Happiness is something that's short lived and if the oppurtunity is not taken to enjoy it to the fullest extent then that happiness will be taken away and you'll be right back in that sadness that you started off in.
I know soon enough that happiness will come my way.
I just wish it would happen alot sooner.
I'm sick of complaining to people.
I'm sick of bothering Ashh and Kyle with y stupid little problems.
They're the only ones that seem to listen and I feel bad for talking their ears off.
I'm sorry for alot.
And maybe when I finally can forgive myself,
I can be truely happy again.
Thank you for listening.
♥
I finally got to hang out with Erica Teves.
We went to the swansea mall.
I bought plugs.
She bought christmas presents.
Larissa was there and that was the first time I met her.
We went to Walmart and tried to find a heater that they didn't have.
Then we visited Sara(who i met for the first time too) at Shaws.
We went to taco bell before she got out of work and then we picked her up.
We brought Larissa home then we went back to Shaws.
We bought weed.
Dropped Sara off back at Shaws and then the 2 Erica's smoked.
Pretty sweet story for the first time you actually hang out with them.
Haha.
Speaking of which, I miss Mel.
I also miss AshGiff.
I need to hang out with them.
I hate these up and down feelings.
I was so happy yesterday and now I just feel awful.
I don't know why.
I miss him kind of.
I don't want to though.
I like being friends with him.
I think the events from the other day are now hitting me.
I'm not thinking about them it's just that I guess I didn't think it was a big deal at the time and now I'm finally realizing things.
I He was the first boy I liked in the longest time.
And I didn't think I was ready for a relationship until now.
I miss being in relationships.
I think for me, being in a relationship is like a security blanket.
You won't have anything to worry about because you have that other person.
And you know that when no one else will listen, they will.
Having that sort of 'security' is a good feeling.
But I guess it's not my time to enjoy being happy anymore.
Happiness is something that's short lived and if the oppurtunity is not taken to enjoy it to the fullest extent then that happiness will be taken away and you'll be right back in that sadness that you started off in.
I know soon enough that happiness will come my way.
I just wish it would happen alot sooner.
I'm sick of complaining to people.
I'm sick of bothering Ashh and Kyle with y stupid little problems.
They're the only ones that seem to listen and I feel bad for talking their ears off.
I'm sorry for alot.
And maybe when I finally can forgive myself,
I can be truely happy again.
Thank you for listening.
♥