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I've been really sick.
&I havent been in school in over a week.
So I can't really tell you if I like Highschool or not..
Seeing that I haven't been there long enough to know.
I go back to the Doctor on Tuesday to see if I've gotten a little bit better.
I don't know. &I just don't know how/what I feel anymore.
He's predicting 6 more weeks of all of this.
Im hurting a lot.
Physically &Emotionally.
Like I dont want to cry.
Because I probably don't even have a REAL reason to cry..
But I just can't stop myself.
As much as I HATE waking up @5:30am.
I NEED to be at school.
I need to see people.
I need to feel like I've accomplished something.
I need to feel like I'm not failing..
Because at the rate im going now..
I'm pretty much failing.
&It's not even my fault.
I need to feel not so lazy.
Even though it's not my fault that I can't do anything.
If you know me..
Then you know Im not a lazy person.
Im not the type of person who can just sit around doing NOTHING.
I need to be moving, doing things, feeling like im accomplishing things.
&Right now I'm told that I cant do anything.
That I can sit on my couch in my house watching T.V or sleeping.
I hate it.
I hate it.
I hate it.
Because thats not me..
Blah.
Everything just makes me tired &upset.
&I wish I could find the person who gave me this liver, spleen, throat, neck swelling sickness that last for a month &half,
so I could punch them in the face.
Not really, That would be mean.
Im stupid.
&this doesnt make sense.
BYE!