I'd be lost without her
Wrote this at 4:32 AM.
Yesterday had gone by quickly.
Though, I was depressed almost all day.
I fell into a deep depression for 4 years after my mom died. I crawled out of it when I was going into the 7th grade. Throughout 7th and 8th grade everything was fine.
However, arriving into high school I fell back into it. For numerous reasons, I'm not going to elaborate.
Nonetheless, I was diagnosed with bi-polar and manic depression at the beginning of the school year.
I’ve realized at this stage in my life, that roughly everyone I know knows what I went through this past school year.
My life is almost like an open book. I honestly don’t care if people know about my life. Sure, there is some thing I would be concerned if people knew about.
Yes, I will admit that I use to self harm myself. Yet, I never, ever did it for attention, as most people would think. Seeing as I don’t like attention, I like to keep to myself. I did it because I had self-hatred, self denial, low self-esteem, low self-image, low self-respect, low self-perseverance, inner turmoil, and because I needed to see my mom again.
I don’t know why I waited for so long to get the help that I needed, but finally around I went to Molly.
Molly Berger had saved my life, literally. She is beyond doubt the best; I don’t know what I’d do without her. I’ve known her my whole life. She perceptibly knows every little thing I’ve went through. She is my sister; the only difference is we have different parents. We’re incredibly close to each other. If it wasn’t for her, I would be here today, typing this.
Today I got the new Seether CD. Not bad.
Okay... Molly, Jordyn, & Erin know exactly what I'm talking about when I say, I love guys with curly hair. Mostly guys with curly hair and are a lead singer of a band. Kind of like my boyfriend. =)
And Steve Bays (Hot Hot Heat) and Zach Davidson (Vendetta Red). I just saw Zach Davidson on a website and I thought I should say something. I'm done.
Ahh, yes, Jay. I still need to get back to you on "Renee". I promise you I'll give you my thoughts soon. Oh and I got your IM, last night. Care to elaborate? (please.)
I have a tutor for math now, on Mondays. This sucks. I'll admit it though, I need it.
Yesterday had gone by quickly.
Though, I was depressed almost all day.
I fell into a deep depression for 4 years after my mom died. I crawled out of it when I was going into the 7th grade. Throughout 7th and 8th grade everything was fine.
However, arriving into high school I fell back into it. For numerous reasons, I'm not going to elaborate.
Nonetheless, I was diagnosed with bi-polar and manic depression at the beginning of the school year.
I’ve realized at this stage in my life, that roughly everyone I know knows what I went through this past school year.
My life is almost like an open book. I honestly don’t care if people know about my life. Sure, there is some thing I would be concerned if people knew about.
Yes, I will admit that I use to self harm myself. Yet, I never, ever did it for attention, as most people would think. Seeing as I don’t like attention, I like to keep to myself. I did it because I had self-hatred, self denial, low self-esteem, low self-image, low self-respect, low self-perseverance, inner turmoil, and because I needed to see my mom again.
I don’t know why I waited for so long to get the help that I needed, but finally around I went to Molly.
Molly Berger had saved my life, literally. She is beyond doubt the best; I don’t know what I’d do without her. I’ve known her my whole life. She perceptibly knows every little thing I’ve went through. She is my sister; the only difference is we have different parents. We’re incredibly close to each other. If it wasn’t for her, I would be here today, typing this.
Today I got the new Seether CD. Not bad.
Okay... Molly, Jordyn, & Erin know exactly what I'm talking about when I say, I love guys with curly hair. Mostly guys with curly hair and are a lead singer of a band. Kind of like my boyfriend. =)
And Steve Bays (Hot Hot Heat) and Zach Davidson (Vendetta Red). I just saw Zach Davidson on a website and I thought I should say something. I'm done.
Ahh, yes, Jay. I still need to get back to you on "Renee". I promise you I'll give you my thoughts soon. Oh and I got your IM, last night. Care to elaborate? (please.)
I have a tutor for math now, on Mondays. This sucks. I'll admit it though, I need it.