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i dont know what to think or do.
i like grant a lot... haha. but why did i think id have a chance. nokomis likes grant now because travis is... weird. i dont really understand him. i just wish i was pretty and less shy and way cooler so then maybe id have a chance.
i dont need any of that "omfg you are pretty though" bullshit. or "you can talk to me if you want" even. i just want to know what to do. nokomis is cool and all and yeah i am good friends with her, i just get really upset when these things happen.
i hate being jealous and i hate being mad and sad and liking guys.
i really haven't had a boyfriend in so long. too long. almost long enough for me not to care about not having one anymore.
i just get so lonely.