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i had a job interview with mcdonald's tuesday.. i have orientation on friday.
last friday was pretty much a mistake.
huge mistake.
and what's sad is that i always say nothing we do is a mistake,
but a lesson learned.
not in this case.
pretty much regret ever going out.
i guess i'm back to my old habits.
and having someone to care about is too hard.
things about jesse:
1. he doesn't let me smoke
2. doesn't like my piercings
3. doesn't like my friends because they're rude to him, (because he's rude to them first)
4. doesn't like jorge, not because he's gay, but because he's a guy
5. doesn't like me littering - fuckit, i litter.
6. won't let me drink more than one smirnoff
7. won't let me go outside when we're hanging out with friends
8. makes me feel completely stupid
9. constantly judges me and critisizes me
10. makes me put my phone on silent when we're hanging out
11. doesn't like when i wear eyeliner
12. takes pictures of my boobs more than my face on his phone
13. constantly talks about my friends, how they use me, and how i don't need them
14. tells me i have to pay him back when he offers to pay for dinner
15. hates the way i drive
16. won't let me dye my hair any color but blond or brown
17. won't let me cut my hair
18. won't let me talk to my guy friends, and gets mad when they talk to me or call me
19. he has raised a hand to hit me
20. second time he put his hands on me was last friday
a lot right?
is it worth it?
i don't know...........
it's love right?
i still don't know...
last friday was pretty much a mistake.
huge mistake.
and what's sad is that i always say nothing we do is a mistake,
but a lesson learned.
not in this case.
pretty much regret ever going out.
i guess i'm back to my old habits.
and having someone to care about is too hard.
things about jesse:
1. he doesn't let me smoke
2. doesn't like my piercings
3. doesn't like my friends because they're rude to him, (because he's rude to them first)
4. doesn't like jorge, not because he's gay, but because he's a guy
5. doesn't like me littering - fuckit, i litter.
6. won't let me drink more than one smirnoff
7. won't let me go outside when we're hanging out with friends
8. makes me feel completely stupid
9. constantly judges me and critisizes me
10. makes me put my phone on silent when we're hanging out
11. doesn't like when i wear eyeliner
12. takes pictures of my boobs more than my face on his phone
13. constantly talks about my friends, how they use me, and how i don't need them
14. tells me i have to pay him back when he offers to pay for dinner
15. hates the way i drive
16. won't let me dye my hair any color but blond or brown
17. won't let me cut my hair
18. won't let me talk to my guy friends, and gets mad when they talk to me or call me
19. he has raised a hand to hit me
20. second time he put his hands on me was last friday
a lot right?
is it worth it?
i don't know...........
it's love right?
i still don't know...