i don't know what to do...I CAN'T GO ON NOT LOVING YOU
i'm sorry but im just gonna vent and feel sorry for myself right now, i need to get all this out of my system...
i fucked up with my boyfriend ~!!! I want him back more than anything else in this whole world. it hurtsz me so bad knowing what i did to him. i cant take it. i had everything i have ever wanted and like a dumbass i had to fuck it all up. i thought that tellin' him would make it a lil better, but i was wrong. i know a lot of guysz that cheat on their girlsz and a lot of girlsz that cheat on their mans but they never break up; why did it have to happen with me?!?
those 2 kisses weren't worth it, not worth losing the one i really cared about. my feelings for him are undescribable. no words can tell how much i love him! its insane, im gonna go craaazy without him. i dont want any other guy but HIM. he alwaysz made me laugh, he alwaysz made me feel good about myself, he made me feel like i was actually someone that mattered. no guy has ever made me feel the way he made me feel. he was so GOOD to me, why did i do sucha stoopid thing to him...? he didnt deserve that, not at all. but whateva he doesnt deserve me...he deserves someone that wont treat him bad like i did. i wish he could understand how i really feel, then maybe we'd still be together; but he doesnt. he's too mad at me to even look at my face!!!! if you're reading this eric, just know that i love you and that i am sincerly sorry and i love you with a passion and i think i alwayz will. please forgive me babe ~!!! peace out
