DONT STOP DONT STOP
i have hundreds of polaroids to scan, there is proof there that i am building everything i wanted so badly for so long
i transfer to Trader Joes at Masonic on Feb 5th. i will be working four shifts a week, sunday through thursday.
i had very positive interviews at two high end lingerie shoppes in the city. i have at least a dozen job offers in retail sales. highest bidder & best location wins.
i am still looking in the haight, cole valley, lower haight, & (tentatively) the mission for apartments. but now i am looking with another girl. who is lovely. and maybe alex or jordan, because they are moving out too. i have a few options, i'm just picky.
i got so many kisses on new years. made out with alex baldwin on top of a bar. made out with kelsy while surrounded by people who love me and live life to a stunning extent.
went to santa cruz. went pee in the grouch's bathroom. went to berkeley, snorted an assortment of painkillers for the first time in months, good company & sleep & sleep & sleep. this is the first i've been home for the night in weeks. i live out of a duffle bag.
kelsy is falling for me hard & i like him. i put walls up now because i'm fraught with insecurity. we help eachother. before i blacked out on new years i told him all my secrets, he told me his stories. he is very brave & good. he told me his stories again the next night because alcohol had muddled everything. he is very brave & good.
in a few weeks i will be living a life i had drawn into my pillowcases for years. i'm escaping limbo. i'm alive.
i transfer to Trader Joes at Masonic on Feb 5th. i will be working four shifts a week, sunday through thursday.
i had very positive interviews at two high end lingerie shoppes in the city. i have at least a dozen job offers in retail sales. highest bidder & best location wins.
i am still looking in the haight, cole valley, lower haight, & (tentatively) the mission for apartments. but now i am looking with another girl. who is lovely. and maybe alex or jordan, because they are moving out too. i have a few options, i'm just picky.
i got so many kisses on new years. made out with alex baldwin on top of a bar. made out with kelsy while surrounded by people who love me and live life to a stunning extent.
went to santa cruz. went pee in the grouch's bathroom. went to berkeley, snorted an assortment of painkillers for the first time in months, good company & sleep & sleep & sleep. this is the first i've been home for the night in weeks. i live out of a duffle bag.
kelsy is falling for me hard & i like him. i put walls up now because i'm fraught with insecurity. we help eachother. before i blacked out on new years i told him all my secrets, he told me his stories. he is very brave & good. he told me his stories again the next night because alcohol had muddled everything. he is very brave & good.
in a few weeks i will be living a life i had drawn into my pillowcases for years. i'm escaping limbo. i'm alive.