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i was in a bad mood before, but now i am in a good mood =) this year went by so fast. and i can't believe i am going to be 18 next year! that is so weird to think about. i still feel like im 16. idk. i kind of want to get two jobs for summer but i think i need time to relax sometimes though. i feel like things are so different now then they were when i was in like 9th grade. you cant expect things to stay the same forever. i love my family so much. i better appreciate them because they will soon be gone. i dont want to think in the future. i just want to live in the moment. i always think how much it stinks that i will never get to be young again but i can't go back which is why i want to make the most of each day. idk i definitely think and overthink. i definitely have to start looking for colleges soon. i kind of want to go on vacation or something. i wish i was allowed to go on a road trip hahahaha. maybe next year. i really need to start having more fun. i wish i could just sleep on the beach forever. i hope one day i find true love / my soulmate / a boy version of me. hahahaha. im sure i will.