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Passed few days have been crazy.. It's tearing me apart.. Kevin was killed yesterday night.. I didn't even hear about it till after my game..
Yesterday before practice, Jenny Stallings went 55 in the parking lot and hit us in the back, I hit my head on the windsheild and Kevin hurt his arm, ribs, and his neck. Jenny had a huge gash in her head. There were 2 cops, the principals, and 2 ambulances there.. I hurt my neck, back, and my head.. Although I had a seat belt on.. I still hit my head on the windsheild.. The windsheild shattered too.. so the top of my head is cut.. But it's not bad.
I'm suppose to be grounded for some dumb stuff, but I don't care. I'll be good this weekend and clean my room and stuff to get off of prohbation. But last night I didn't know how bad Kevin was.. His mom said he went into shock after I left.. like right when I was in the car he went into shock, she said she tried to come get me but I was already leaving and it was too late.. He went into an acoma, and an hour or so later came out, and he couldn't breathe.. and they couldn't do anything to help him breathe.. and yeah.. My best friend's dead..I can't believe it.
I'm so fucking sad it's unbelievable. It's so hard right now to just not take the knife and make one huge slash across my wrist or stab a major artery...I really miss Bobbie.. I doubt she misses me.. Sometimes I don't know..
Today we played against a South African team. They were so good, it was incredible. I did awesome in the beginning.. and hten they scored on me.. one I couldn't stop.. and if you know me.. you know I play bad when I get pissed off.. and they scored 2 more times after that.. then Half-Time came.. I got yelled at real bad..Mahrysa went in and they scored 2 times on her.. We scored once.. but it was right at the buzzer.. so it didn't count.. So yeah.. I need to buckle down more.. and keep my head on the game no matter how hard it is..
But yeah.. When I walked off that Field.. My Big Brother gave me the news.. I broke down so hard.. My world is just.. Falling apart. Bits and bits at a time.. Bits of pieces that mean everything to me.. I know next I'm going to lose Bobbie.. and when I do.. My world is going to end.. There's just so much shit going on.. Too many people are being hurt.. I can't take all this.
I'm going to kill Jenny. I literally am. I can't take her ass anymore. She fucking killed my best friend, and because I turned down driving. It's all my fault..Gah I gotta go.. I'm tired of crying and I don't want to make it obvious to my mom that I plugged my internet back in.. I'll write here later..
..Kieara
Yesterday before practice, Jenny Stallings went 55 in the parking lot and hit us in the back, I hit my head on the windsheild and Kevin hurt his arm, ribs, and his neck. Jenny had a huge gash in her head. There were 2 cops, the principals, and 2 ambulances there.. I hurt my neck, back, and my head.. Although I had a seat belt on.. I still hit my head on the windsheild.. The windsheild shattered too.. so the top of my head is cut.. But it's not bad.
I'm suppose to be grounded for some dumb stuff, but I don't care. I'll be good this weekend and clean my room and stuff to get off of prohbation. But last night I didn't know how bad Kevin was.. His mom said he went into shock after I left.. like right when I was in the car he went into shock, she said she tried to come get me but I was already leaving and it was too late.. He went into an acoma, and an hour or so later came out, and he couldn't breathe.. and they couldn't do anything to help him breathe.. and yeah.. My best friend's dead..I can't believe it.
I'm so fucking sad it's unbelievable. It's so hard right now to just not take the knife and make one huge slash across my wrist or stab a major artery...I really miss Bobbie.. I doubt she misses me.. Sometimes I don't know..
Today we played against a South African team. They were so good, it was incredible. I did awesome in the beginning.. and hten they scored on me.. one I couldn't stop.. and if you know me.. you know I play bad when I get pissed off.. and they scored 2 more times after that.. then Half-Time came.. I got yelled at real bad..Mahrysa went in and they scored 2 times on her.. We scored once.. but it was right at the buzzer.. so it didn't count.. So yeah.. I need to buckle down more.. and keep my head on the game no matter how hard it is..
But yeah.. When I walked off that Field.. My Big Brother gave me the news.. I broke down so hard.. My world is just.. Falling apart. Bits and bits at a time.. Bits of pieces that mean everything to me.. I know next I'm going to lose Bobbie.. and when I do.. My world is going to end.. There's just so much shit going on.. Too many people are being hurt.. I can't take all this.
I'm going to kill Jenny. I literally am. I can't take her ass anymore. She fucking killed my best friend, and because I turned down driving. It's all my fault..Gah I gotta go.. I'm tired of crying and I don't want to make it obvious to my mom that I plugged my internet back in.. I'll write here later..
..Kieara