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I'm so mad, and upset all in one.. First Bobbie gets drunk and stays up late.. then I got to practice and she disappears.. and then she comes back and stay on for 10 minutes and hardly says anything to me. It's our one month. I mean, I was hoping to spend time wit hher. But you know what? Fuck it. I'm so sick and tired of feeling pain over all this. I really am. I lvoe that girl so much and it's as if she doesn't love me. So, I'm going to just not worry and try anymore, and just do whatever the fuck I please than try and be here for her to talk to her, when she doesn't even talk to me.
Tomorrow I'm not getting on. I have enough shit to do as it is, I'm not going to be here just for the hell of it. I have 2 scrimmages back to back. I have Varsity, and then I have JV, at 11 am, and I don't get any breaks except for 5 minutes for half times. When I get home I'm just going to come home, shower and go to bed. I honestly don't know what to do.. I'm not leaving her because of this.. I don't know.. maybe I shoudl give her something she's been waiting for, for awhile..I jsut can't do it.. I'm not all into that shit anymore.. we haven't done it all month and I really want to see where we can go without doing it.. but I can see it's going to take us even more down hill..
Gah.. I'm ending this I feel like hell as it is..
..Kieara
Tomorrow I'm not getting on. I have enough shit to do as it is, I'm not going to be here just for the hell of it. I have 2 scrimmages back to back. I have Varsity, and then I have JV, at 11 am, and I don't get any breaks except for 5 minutes for half times. When I get home I'm just going to come home, shower and go to bed. I honestly don't know what to do.. I'm not leaving her because of this.. I don't know.. maybe I shoudl give her something she's been waiting for, for awhile..I jsut can't do it.. I'm not all into that shit anymore.. we haven't done it all month and I really want to see where we can go without doing it.. but I can see it's going to take us even more down hill..
Gah.. I'm ending this I feel like hell as it is..
..Kieara