May 04, 2007 19:01
I haven't eaten more than almonds all day. What the fuck is wrong with me? I have to pass a drug test and the cleansing solution calls for as little intake of solid foods as possible.
I like feel goddamn lunatic now. A more substantiable psychotic than usually anyway. Feelings of remorse fill my mind. My body is filled with a warm sensation. And I am totally sure that I am doing the right thing.
I feel remorse for all the time I've wasted away from the people who care about me and I truely care about. But it's a strange feeling of sorrow, one I can't really place my finger on yet. It's something very real, sincere, something I've wanted to say for a long time. And it's so strange because, despite how strong the feelings of regret are, they are being diminished by the sanctity of this article. What I mean is that this is a sort of coming out, a total and complete display of humble honesty. I'll explain more when I can...but I nneed sleep.