sorry im such a UPDATE WHORE!

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from the last entry; i've thought about a lot. thank you for the comments. =]

even though im grounded i can still have fun; right? ...even if its by myself. my friend craig wanted me to sneek out with him last night; since he only lives on the next road. but i never called him; plus i did'nt want to get caught by some dumb cop, and get grounded for

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kjsdhfksht; tear, tear. deeeeeds; i miss having harmless fun. being around the people who would always make me laugh, the friends that werent harming my health, the best friends i had, and always will have. dont blame yourself for my mistakes. i cant even hold in my tears. you, christina, and natalie; my best friends. you three cant even imaigne how much you hontley mean to me. i promise you, this is just a fase; i will not continue this thoughout my life. truthfully i am not happy in life. i miss my old best friends, i miss getting ready on friday nights for a movie, i miss having fun without drugs. now i cant seem to have fun without drugs. my self esteam is so low right now. anyways i wrote christina a letter, and i am intending to give it to her tomorrow at school. it says a lot; you should read it, the same goes for you whats in the note. dd i have some of the best people in this world as my friends. people who have always been here for me; through anything. you, christina, anna, and some others are those people. once i get ungrounded ill give you a ring; i really miss hanging out with you. dd no pp always.<3

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Lauren I love you and I am always here for you ,I hope you know that. We had so much fun before smoking and we still do even though we are smoking. But I dont really know what to say your about self- esteem. Im not sure why you feel that way. All of your friends love you to death and any of us would do anything for you!Please tell me why you feel this way and Ill help you out. Call me at whatever time. Or we can hang out at your house or something with candles incents and music and talk like me you and carly did at Mollys party.

I love you lame-o.

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michelle-
you make me smile; even when i feel like i am going to puke. you rock my world. i love you. NAP TIME! <333333

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I LOVE YOU EVEN MORE, AND THOSE INCENTS LAST NIGHT WERE BURNING MY EYES BUT I FELT RELAXED WITH THE WHOLE ATMOSPHERE.

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the smoke of my insents traveled up; so i couldnt smell it half of the time. the other half of the time i siffffed it. that was so relaxing [my atmosphere] ...and you know how i was saying those pills were working. yeah well now i think im sick. hahaha; karma stinks. ♥