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God truly is good.
Tonight was a rough night for me. It was senior dinner for church, and I just broke down. I'm going to miss that place, the people I met, and the friends I made so much. I'm going so far away, and, oh man, I just couldn't take it. On top of that, my mom's really upset with me, and I'm trying so hard to make it better, but it just won't happen. SO. I needed someone to talk to. Josh is with his friends, and I didn't want to bother him. None of my close close friends really get the whole church deal...and...
You know what? I talked to God. I asked Him to be with me in my time of need, no matter how small it was. As soon as I asked that, I felt this overwhelming sense of security and love. I started crying again, but this time, not out of sadness. They were tears of awe, love, and joy. A song we sang this weekend at church goes:
...and I cannot hold it in and remain composed, love's taking over me, so I propose, letting myself go, I am letting myself go...You are my joy
And I truly felt that just now. I started crying. I am in no way composed. My heart is filled with His love. I want to share this love with others! I'm pretty sure if you were here in my room with me when I felt that, I'd have given you the biggest hug of your life. I can't believe that I have such a privilege to know God, to know that He loves me, to be able to grow in my love for Him. So many people don't have that privilege, because they've never had the chance to have a Bible written in their own language, or they've never even heard anyone ever mention Jesus. And I want to let you know that you do! We live in a country so blessed to have so many resources available to us. You have the chance to know love that is bigger than any love on this world. You have the chance to know something so magnificent and powerful, and be able to call Him your friend. We, as His creation, are already so important to Him, but we can KNOW that! How amazing is that? It's so much to comprehend; I cannot fully understand the capacity of His unconditional love and support. It's amazing, though. That, I do know. And I want you to know it's right there for you. If you have any questions about that, please let me know. This is here for you. This love, joy, amazing opportunity to live life the way we are meant to live.
Tonight was a rough night for me. It was senior dinner for church, and I just broke down. I'm going to miss that place, the people I met, and the friends I made so much. I'm going so far away, and, oh man, I just couldn't take it. On top of that, my mom's really upset with me, and I'm trying so hard to make it better, but it just won't happen. SO. I needed someone to talk to. Josh is with his friends, and I didn't want to bother him. None of my close close friends really get the whole church deal...and...
You know what? I talked to God. I asked Him to be with me in my time of need, no matter how small it was. As soon as I asked that, I felt this overwhelming sense of security and love. I started crying again, but this time, not out of sadness. They were tears of awe, love, and joy. A song we sang this weekend at church goes:
...and I cannot hold it in and remain composed, love's taking over me, so I propose, letting myself go, I am letting myself go...You are my joy
And I truly felt that just now. I started crying. I am in no way composed. My heart is filled with His love. I want to share this love with others! I'm pretty sure if you were here in my room with me when I felt that, I'd have given you the biggest hug of your life. I can't believe that I have such a privilege to know God, to know that He loves me, to be able to grow in my love for Him. So many people don't have that privilege, because they've never had the chance to have a Bible written in their own language, or they've never even heard anyone ever mention Jesus. And I want to let you know that you do! We live in a country so blessed to have so many resources available to us. You have the chance to know love that is bigger than any love on this world. You have the chance to know something so magnificent and powerful, and be able to call Him your friend. We, as His creation, are already so important to Him, but we can KNOW that! How amazing is that? It's so much to comprehend; I cannot fully understand the capacity of His unconditional love and support. It's amazing, though. That, I do know. And I want you to know it's right there for you. If you have any questions about that, please let me know. This is here for you. This love, joy, amazing opportunity to live life the way we are meant to live.