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background info. there has been a feeling lately, for me and some others, that we are completley unwanted at youth group. every sunday we feel this way. last week, none of my so-called 'friends' even said one word to me. except michael, tracy, lorna dalton & sara (they were late) and ross (and the freshmen). thankyou guys. ily. but everyone else, there has been a lot of drama. a feeling that i (and some others) are unwanted, disliked, even shunned and hated at youth group. i used to go here, and the people, all of them, were my second family. we were all best friends. somewhere between july and now, it changed. i go to church, go to youth, no one talks to me anymore. its to the point where i come home and cry. every week. its gotta stop, people. and you say that you love me equally. well you don't show it.

so yeah.

think of it like this:

United 4 Him.

we cant even live up to our youth group's name.
we are not united,
and if this is how we are acting,
then we are certainly not 'for Him.'

all the pretty words in the world will do nothing.
actions speak louder than words.
thats all i have to say.

thanks for making me feel like crap everytime i step into what is supposed to be my refuge, my comfort, my shelter.
you people are not godly at all.
if you are, prove it.

ps. I AM NOT ALONE IN THIS FEELING.