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WHYY IS MY LJ LAYOUT SO FUCKED UP? Now I have to fix it.
Too much on my mind. (It's weird saying that.) My whole life I worried too much and over-analyzed the sinplist things, and wanted NOTHING but to just make them go away. Even if it meant feeling nothing. Then I felt nothing, and euphoria turned to numb. AND ALL I WANTED WAS TO GO BACK TO MY WAYS, criticizing everything I do, things people say, what I loo like, the list goes on. Welp, I'm getting there, and again, I hate it. The sad part is, it's not even the same, I'm still numb. But I can't handle any thoughts in my head.
Sometimes I think about happiness, and i imagine being 16-17 again. But I was SO UNHAPPY. I need to just be happy that I have grown up so much, and I've changed because I've matured, It's not always a bad thing. I don't know what's wrong or right anymore.
I miss having hundreds of dollars on a daily basis. There, I said it. I don't miss the job though. Just the money.
Busy busy day tomorrow. I hope my social anxiety goes away. soon. I'm sick of not doing anything.
OHKAY all done complaining..., bai guiz
Too much on my mind. (It's weird saying that.) My whole life I worried too much and over-analyzed the sinplist things, and wanted NOTHING but to just make them go away. Even if it meant feeling nothing. Then I felt nothing, and euphoria turned to numb. AND ALL I WANTED WAS TO GO BACK TO MY WAYS, criticizing everything I do, things people say, what I loo like, the list goes on. Welp, I'm getting there, and again, I hate it. The sad part is, it's not even the same, I'm still numb. But I can't handle any thoughts in my head.
Sometimes I think about happiness, and i imagine being 16-17 again. But I was SO UNHAPPY. I need to just be happy that I have grown up so much, and I've changed because I've matured, It's not always a bad thing. I don't know what's wrong or right anymore.
I miss having hundreds of dollars on a daily basis. There, I said it. I don't miss the job though. Just the money.
Busy busy day tomorrow. I hope my social anxiety goes away. soon. I'm sick of not doing anything.
OHKAY all done complaining..., bai guiz