6am

[_______notrivia]

My past haunts me. Its so hard to move on when I have to think about everything I've been through just in the past two year's alone. I need to forget. But I have so many nightmares it's impossible. I know I'm worth so much more yet I bring myself down constantly. The thongs ive seen, people ive been with, situations ive put myself in... its still earing at me.
I'm always scared. And that's my reality.

I'm happy to be clean... but I want the thoughts to go away. I'm lucky to even be alive.

So I guess the next step is forgetting. This may take some time.