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Nothing and No one can explain how I feel lately.
Just everything going through my mind.
You do not know how much I want to move already, Im getting sick of everything. I'm being a bitch lately, and everyone is getting mad at me. I'm sorry for that. Just sooooooooooooooooooooooooo many things going on in my life. And most of em are not good. Im scared of everything I do now. I'm always scared, and worried, and upset. This is not a stage i am going through. This is my life I am trying to live out. I need to talk to someone. But everyone seems to be mad at me, or start talking about their own things. I might seem a bit selfish right now, but my shoulder is getting a little weak now. Everyone used my shoulder for them to cry on. It was always open, no matter what. But now, when I need it most, no one is lending me theirs. I try to talk, and they talk over me. I need a good. long. talk. Which will include lots of crying for me.
Usually I just think of the memories I had before any of this, and how happy I was. Its all practically gone. Ive stopped talking as much, Ive stopped going places with my friends, Ive practically stopped having fun because it just doesnt interest me anymore with everything in my personal life. I hate school. I always loved it. Now I utterly H-A-T-E-I-T. I miss 7th grade. I miss all my 8th grade best friends. I miss my old life. The one I had before all of this fuckin shit. Stupid. Fuckin. Shit. Thats going on.
Just everything going through my mind.
You do not know how much I want to move already, Im getting sick of everything. I'm being a bitch lately, and everyone is getting mad at me. I'm sorry for that. Just sooooooooooooooooooooooooo many things going on in my life. And most of em are not good. Im scared of everything I do now. I'm always scared, and worried, and upset. This is not a stage i am going through. This is my life I am trying to live out. I need to talk to someone. But everyone seems to be mad at me, or start talking about their own things. I might seem a bit selfish right now, but my shoulder is getting a little weak now. Everyone used my shoulder for them to cry on. It was always open, no matter what. But now, when I need it most, no one is lending me theirs. I try to talk, and they talk over me. I need a good. long. talk. Which will include lots of crying for me.
Usually I just think of the memories I had before any of this, and how happy I was. Its all practically gone. Ive stopped talking as much, Ive stopped going places with my friends, Ive practically stopped having fun because it just doesnt interest me anymore with everything in my personal life. I hate school. I always loved it. Now I utterly H-A-T-E-I-T. I miss 7th grade. I miss all my 8th grade best friends. I miss my old life. The one I had before all of this fuckin shit. Stupid. Fuckin. Shit. Thats going on.