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sometimes i feel really down and i don't know why i feel this way. And when i feel this way i can actually play songs on repeat for hours, maybe because i feel comfortable wallowing in the same crappy emotion for hours. maybe thats why we like having something to feel down about. It is quite tiring saying, "OK SNAP OUT OF IT". i don't want to snap out of it , i don't see an ending point and now i'm just doing nothing. It feels like i'm standing on a piece of really thin transparent surface and maybe it's made of ice. So it was really thick and sturdy at first but because i haven't been moving, it's been melting and now it is really thin.