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sick
so i stayed home today from school.
mom took care of me it was nice.
was asleep for like the whole day.
i woke up to this scaring dream. it felt like a movie and i was in the middle of it..full of lies.. childhood memories.. childhood friends.. murder .. parents. and police. it seemed so real
i hate those kinds of dreams when i feel as though im being chased.. but in this movie/dream,, the one chasing me.. was a actor playin the role of my dad.. he was the murder in the story as well as his mistress.. it was intense.
and then another dream i had.. seemed sooo real.. in dealin what is ogoing on in my life now..im like with this guy brad. and then in the back on my mind im thinking of this other guy and the the other guy would call me when i would be with brad. and it was weird..but i would kiss this guy brad ..and then like out of no where my x pops up and sees me with brad and gets totally jealous and so i go to kiss brad again to get my x jealous..and then wehn i open my eyes to look at brad he turned into my x. i dont get this .. and like..it seemed soo real. it really freaked me out.blah
also today i was done on the fact of my missing this one person.. more like x boyfriend/
and i dont even know why
also today i was done on the fact of my missing this one person.. more like x boyfriend/
and i dont even know why
i was soo like sad about it..and i felt as though i wanted him back. or maybe i just wanted that feeling back. the feeling of well.. i dont really know. i guess holding eachother and laughin and knowing that this guy really likes u.. or at that time he did.
we got our tree today.. and me being sick i wasnt soo decorative, i hung some stuff up..it looks way pretty ill post pix later.
well. im just goign to wait for sex and the city.night.
so i stayed home today from school.
mom took care of me it was nice.
was asleep for like the whole day.
i woke up to this scaring dream. it felt like a movie and i was in the middle of it..full of lies.. childhood memories.. childhood friends.. murder .. parents. and police. it seemed so real
i hate those kinds of dreams when i feel as though im being chased.. but in this movie/dream,, the one chasing me.. was a actor playin the role of my dad.. he was the murder in the story as well as his mistress.. it was intense.
and then another dream i had.. seemed sooo real.. in dealin what is ogoing on in my life now..im like with this guy brad. and then in the back on my mind im thinking of this other guy and the the other guy would call me when i would be with brad. and it was weird..but i would kiss this guy brad ..and then like out of no where my x pops up and sees me with brad and gets totally jealous and so i go to kiss brad again to get my x jealous..and then wehn i open my eyes to look at brad he turned into my x. i dont get this .. and like..it seemed soo real. it really freaked me out.blah
also today i was done on the fact of my missing this one person.. more like x boyfriend/
and i dont even know why
also today i was done on the fact of my missing this one person.. more like x boyfriend/
and i dont even know why
i was soo like sad about it..and i felt as though i wanted him back. or maybe i just wanted that feeling back. the feeling of well.. i dont really know. i guess holding eachother and laughin and knowing that this guy really likes u.. or at that time he did.
we got our tree today.. and me being sick i wasnt soo decorative, i hung some stuff up..it looks way pretty ill post pix later.
well. im just goign to wait for sex and the city.night.