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I wish I could explain in words what I'm feeling right now.
Is this shit ever going to end? I'm too scared to say anything, because I know that not only would he not care OR understand, but theres a few people that would probaly hate me if they knew. Theres one girl that I've told, and only because I know I can trust her not to say anything.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to accomplish here, but his best friend, and my best friend say that I should let it out. Its not that easy. I just need this to be okay, that and to get it over with. No one knows what I'm talking about so I don't know why the hell I'm saying this, but I just wish I could make up my mind.
Listening to depressing songs doesn't help much, but thats all I can seem to listen to.
These are the times when I wish the most that I could drive. Thats what I need, thats what I really, really need is just to take a long drive and think about things. My god. This is stupid.
SmarterChild: Here's your Cancer horoscope for Saturday, January 21st, provided by Astrology.com:
Don't let an important relationship in your life unravel, especially when it's so easy to pick up the threads. A simple phone call or a short email exchange can go much further than you'd think.
I hate that Smarterchild is always right.
I need a new perspective on this situation.
Is this whole thing just completely pointless, or am I so stressed out about it because it could actually matter?
Is this shit ever going to end? I'm too scared to say anything, because I know that not only would he not care OR understand, but theres a few people that would probaly hate me if they knew. Theres one girl that I've told, and only because I know I can trust her not to say anything.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to accomplish here, but his best friend, and my best friend say that I should let it out. Its not that easy. I just need this to be okay, that and to get it over with. No one knows what I'm talking about so I don't know why the hell I'm saying this, but I just wish I could make up my mind.
Listening to depressing songs doesn't help much, but thats all I can seem to listen to.
These are the times when I wish the most that I could drive. Thats what I need, thats what I really, really need is just to take a long drive and think about things. My god. This is stupid.
SmarterChild: Here's your Cancer horoscope for Saturday, January 21st, provided by Astrology.com:
Don't let an important relationship in your life unravel, especially when it's so easy to pick up the threads. A simple phone call or a short email exchange can go much further than you'd think.
I hate that Smarterchild is always right.
I need a new perspective on this situation.
Is this whole thing just completely pointless, or am I so stressed out about it because it could actually matter?