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So basically my last few entries have been completely pointless.
But I honestly have nothing to say or write about.
I feel like I'm losing most of my friends, I have like, 4 good friends left, and thats pretty much it.
I guess maybe thats why I've had such bad mood swings lately, I don't know. There is something, but I know I ever told anyone, they would just think I was a jealous bitch, so I'll be keeping that to myself.
I never do anything with anyone anymore, after Christmas break, I've just like isolated myself from hanging out with anybody, and I really hate that. But it seems like things never work out anymore, I'll try to hang out with someone, but right before I do, the plans always change and I end up sitting at home doing nothing. I really, really want this weekend to be good, hopefully that will take my mind off of things and put me in a better mood.
I didn't go to church tonight, everything about that is changing too. It's not that I only go there for friends, because thats definitely not the case, but its just not fun anymore. I used to enjoy it and look forward to it every week, but I just don't anymore. I hate how I can't explain anything that goes through my head, or anything thats somewhat complexed that in my train of thought, if I tryed to explain it to someone, they wouldn't understand it and think that I'm just a crazy bitch who is just really messed up.
But I honestly have nothing to say or write about.
I feel like I'm losing most of my friends, I have like, 4 good friends left, and thats pretty much it.
I guess maybe thats why I've had such bad mood swings lately, I don't know. There is something, but I know I ever told anyone, they would just think I was a jealous bitch, so I'll be keeping that to myself.
I never do anything with anyone anymore, after Christmas break, I've just like isolated myself from hanging out with anybody, and I really hate that. But it seems like things never work out anymore, I'll try to hang out with someone, but right before I do, the plans always change and I end up sitting at home doing nothing. I really, really want this weekend to be good, hopefully that will take my mind off of things and put me in a better mood.
I didn't go to church tonight, everything about that is changing too. It's not that I only go there for friends, because thats definitely not the case, but its just not fun anymore. I used to enjoy it and look forward to it every week, but I just don't anymore. I hate how I can't explain anything that goes through my head, or anything thats somewhat complexed that in my train of thought, if I tryed to explain it to someone, they wouldn't understand it and think that I'm just a crazy bitch who is just really messed up.