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I had to create a school and draw blueprints for it. Here's the mission statement:
The Staff at Kim Jong Il Academy of Fine Arts, in cooperation with the National Censorship bureau and the Korean Association of Associations, will come together..to...associate. And to accomplish other stuff. . .in the name of Justice. And Josef Stalin. This level of excellence will be established by teaching the proper fundamentals of disenfranchisement, obedience and loyalty to the mother land.
heres what the deal is. ryan likes me. joe wants justin. heather is a slut. (not my sister heather) ...joe and justin were hanging out, and joe wanted to "go get his cell phone" at home, but basically so that they could be alone. and justin, being the cool kid he is, agreed. joe told him he liked him. joe basically wants to break us up so that he can get some action from justin. either that or he wants justin to cheat on me. not sure which scenario. but he's sure as hell not making sure he doesn't hurt MY feelings. fucking arrogant bastard. and then this heather girl. heather and abby were skinny dipping in abby's pool. according to dusty, justin wanted to (yet justin told me that he didnt want to) go too. but apparently he refrained. but who knows. everyone could be lying to me so that i don't get pissed at justin. it wouldn't be the millionth time that's happened in my lifetime anyway.
doodleordie: no she wanted to go skinny dipping with justin and Abby
doodleordie: But justin did want to
and then according to justin, this heather girl kept wanting him to look at her naked.
Hey Im H Pine: on the phone, Justin said that heather kept saying "hey justin look!" and he said that he was like "no heather, i have a girlfriend"
doodleordie: First off she was saying that to joe and me also
Hey Im H Pine: you two are also unattached.
Hey Im H Pine: you dont say that to someone who has a girlfriend/boyfriend.
so there's this bullshit with ryan, and now with joe, and having to deal with heather being a slut around justin when she knows he's dating me. i feel like they're all trying to break me and justin up. dan says, "dont let them ruin things"....i'm not. they just...are. obviously no one respects the fact that he's not single. either that, or none of them believe in the morals of a relationship. but i'm not going to keep putting up with this bullshit. i don't want to keep driving to bay city just so i can hang out with people who backstab me and talk shit. it's like they don't give a shit if they hurt someone's feelings by talking shit about them behind their back, or if they make someone's girlfriend/boyfriend cheat. honestly, i'm so sick of having to deal with this shit coming from people who are about as deep as a puddle.
i'm weighing him down. he's not weighing me down because i never did any of that stupid shit in the first place. pretending to kiss other people. skinny dipping. making out with random people. fucking around with random peopleJOE. i've just never done it. and i feel like i'm just holding him back from all these things that he wants to do but can't because "he has a girlfriend". and i feel like his friends are just attacking me. or like, being two-faced and saying 'ohhhh holly i fucking love you, come to bay city because we miss you' and i get there and hang out and i feel like they're just thinking 'fucking christ, i wish she would just get out of our lives'. i so don't want us to break up. not at all. i just feel like they're so close to him that eventually they'll persuade him to do it.
what's a bond, if it dissolves in water?
i took a piss that lasted longer than you and your manipulations
i called my mom last night
she said "sweetie, you don't need someone who's more fleeting than fall"
and don't you love those leaves?