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Yesterday- I stayed home from school sick, so I couldn't do anything. And I'm not even joking, I couldn't even take ONE STEP outside.. which is pretty geeeh. I couldn't go to the dance (not that I wanted to go anyway becase they're usually stupid.) But yeah. And I couldn't have Anthony & Sterling over like I planned.. so I sat home all night on my fat ass and did nothing. Dad ended up going out until like 12:30. And I had all my clothes, blankets and pillows in the wash. And my room felt really empty, I had an empty feeling in my stomach with a headahce. So I slept in the living room. I was watching Goldmember, and for some odd reason I was reminded of Jason. Even though I haven't seen him in like, what .. 3 years now? But anyway, yeah it reminded me of him. Then my dad came home at 12:30 when I was sleeping.. and he's like "what are you doing in here?" I'm like, "what.. I can't sleep in my own living room anymore?!" I was in a wiiicked bad mood for some reason, and I have been for the past like.. 239847293 days. I've just had a LOT of things on my mind, and I seem to always have an empty feeling in my stomach now .. like something's missing inside me. =/ I don't know what's up with that ..
Today- I woke up at like 11:30, because I'm lazy and I COULD NOT SLEEP for the life of me last night. So then I talked to Anthony & Sterling, they came over.. then dad went to Rawchestaaaa for a while. He came home, then we ate. We just hung around and watched TV for most of the afternoon. But Sterling was being a queer, so we all decided to walk to Cumbie's so he could get ice cream and soda. What a retard, wow! In the freezing cold. Ugh.
But anyyyywaaaaay, that's pretty much it. Tomorrow, we have to wake up at like 8:00 because we're going out for breakfast, then to my Nana's house for most of the day. =] Hopefully it won't be too boring. I'm gonna have SO MUCH make-up work to do when I go back to school. Ughhh, gay. I can't wait until school's over.
AH, I still love you. I don't know how things are going to end up with us, but the things that have been going wrong with us are the reason for the empty feeling in my stomach. And I don't like it, hopefully things don't change too much. =/