and keep trying to find your way out of that maze of memories

[_________acidik]

so lately ive been being told that ive changed. And im not going to deny it, because i do realize that i have. Im just not sure how exactly. I with someone could tell me instead of just saying that i have. Sometimes i think that it's not just me that has changed. Sometimes i think its everyone else. But who knows, there's no real way to tell. But it doesn't make it easy when someone IM's you and tells you they miss the old you and that you've changed, then tell you they will be back, then go away, and then dont come back. I don't know, apparently it is just me that has changed, and i guess there are people who don't like the way i am now. But what am i supposed to do to fix it if people don't know the aspects of the problem. I think that all i need is someone that i can talk to, like i used to have. But everyone i used to be able to talk to has most definatly changed, and i don't like it. Like people doing drugs, and popping pills, and that's just not someone i want to be close to. I think it's what i do need though, someone to talk to that is. That way everything wouldn't be bottled up and ready to burst out.

so anyways, on a different note.. Im sooo pissed! I left my camera at the new cheer gym when we went there like 2 months ago, and now Delena hasn't gone there at all. Which is my excuse for not updating at all. But when I get my camera back, if I do, then there will be pictures all the time!..

oh man, i don't even know why i wrote all that, i know no one is going to sit there and read it, because it's me. So if you do read it, leave me a comment, and I will give you a biiiiiiiiiiiig hug when or if I ever see you.