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i really can't do this anymore. i'm so upset all the time and i don't know how to fix it. i've been blocking everything out by not being at home, but now i have to be at home and i don't know what to do. i feel so alone. i just don't want to feel this way. why do you have to lie to me? why do you tell me you want to be with me if you don't? i just don't understand how you can say you love someone but completely bring them down and not feel the slightest bit guilty about it. if you cared about me at all you would break things off with me. but you don't. and you won't let me walk away. what do you want from me? why do you need me around if you have someone else? i don't understand what i did to deserve this.