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everything is just one big blur right now.
i can't make anything out.
i'm really confused.
i just want to catch myself,
because i keep falling farther from where i want to be.
i hate pretending like i'm happy.
i went to the first funeral i had ever been to on wednesday.
it was one of the hardest things to see a boy
i knew since middle school lying in the casket... dead.
i've never experienced that before.
it hurt.
it still hurts.
i just want to feel loved.
i can't make anything out.
i'm really confused.
i just want to catch myself,
because i keep falling farther from where i want to be.
i hate pretending like i'm happy.
i went to the first funeral i had ever been to on wednesday.
it was one of the hardest things to see a boy
i knew since middle school lying in the casket... dead.
i've never experienced that before.
it hurt.
it still hurts.
i just want to feel loved.