Thinking about a pretty face...
I can't do it anymore.
I need to grow a set, and just end it. I know it's going to be shitty for a while, but eventually I'll have to get over it. Right? That's how love works, right? This distance is killing me. I never thought it would be this big of a problem... but given our conflicting schedules, it's just taking it's toll on me and the relationship. I don't think I can do it anymore. We never talk, when we do... we get along, and right after that a fight ensues. It never fails, a good always brings two bad things.
I love him, I'm in love with him... but I question if the feeling is returned? I feel like we've switched roles, and it's so shitty. Now I know how he once felt, and now he's got the upper hand.
Mike coming back into my life isn't making things any easier either.
My job, my health... it's all just too much.
I have a viewing to go to tomorrow, and it's going to be hard as fuck. I mean, they all are... but this, eh.
I don't know what I want anymore.
I need to take some time to myself and think...figure and sort things out on my own. And then figure out if there is space for a relationship, a distant relationship at that.
I love having Brittany to talk to, we face a lot of the same problems... but in a completely different aspect.
I need to grow a set, and just end it. I know it's going to be shitty for a while, but eventually I'll have to get over it. Right? That's how love works, right? This distance is killing me. I never thought it would be this big of a problem... but given our conflicting schedules, it's just taking it's toll on me and the relationship. I don't think I can do it anymore. We never talk, when we do... we get along, and right after that a fight ensues. It never fails, a good always brings two bad things.
I love him, I'm in love with him... but I question if the feeling is returned? I feel like we've switched roles, and it's so shitty. Now I know how he once felt, and now he's got the upper hand.
Mike coming back into my life isn't making things any easier either.
My job, my health... it's all just too much.
I have a viewing to go to tomorrow, and it's going to be hard as fuck. I mean, they all are... but this, eh.
I don't know what I want anymore.
I need to take some time to myself and think...figure and sort things out on my own. And then figure out if there is space for a relationship, a distant relationship at that.
I love having Brittany to talk to, we face a lot of the same problems... but in a completely different aspect.