I'm tired of it.
I'm tired of being lied to.
A big thing went down with Josh and I, and who knows what's going on.
I left the ball in his court.
I don't know what to do with Michael anymore, he plays no role in Riley's life whatsoever.
It's just a waste, and causes drama.
I'll really have to sit and think about it, and what I really need.
I can't let my emotions play a part in my decision.
The weather is crazy. Last week, I was outside and comfortable in shorts and a t-shirt.
This morning, I had to pull out the winter coat.
I don't even care anymore, I just want it to be consistant.
Some songs... I just so, what am I looking for... pumped? When I hear them.. It's such an amazing feeling.
I should just make a few cd's of mixed songs.. like songs I mentioned above. And just listen to them non-stop all day. ALL DAY. Haha.
Adam was watching me straighten my hair earlier today.
I burned my neck, and theres a pretty large mark there.
It doesn't feel nice.
I wish I could just have a day where everything goes well.
One were Riley isn't constantly screaming, or maybe even getting a break from her.
One where other people aren't causing drama or pissing me off.
One where my friends don't blow me off.
One where my mind is free from worry.
It would be ... great, but who am I kidding.
I've been considering some sort of anger management class.
Or just flat out asking my doctor about a medication.
The smallest things set me off, and I'm constantly pissed off.
A big thing went down with Josh and I, and who knows what's going on.
I left the ball in his court.
I don't know what to do with Michael anymore, he plays no role in Riley's life whatsoever.
It's just a waste, and causes drama.
I'll really have to sit and think about it, and what I really need.
I can't let my emotions play a part in my decision.
The weather is crazy. Last week, I was outside and comfortable in shorts and a t-shirt.
This morning, I had to pull out the winter coat.
I don't even care anymore, I just want it to be consistant.
Some songs... I just so, what am I looking for... pumped? When I hear them.. It's such an amazing feeling.
I should just make a few cd's of mixed songs.. like songs I mentioned above. And just listen to them non-stop all day. ALL DAY. Haha.
Adam was watching me straighten my hair earlier today.
I burned my neck, and theres a pretty large mark there.
It doesn't feel nice.
I wish I could just have a day where everything goes well.
One were Riley isn't constantly screaming, or maybe even getting a break from her.
One where other people aren't causing drama or pissing me off.
One where my friends don't blow me off.
One where my mind is free from worry.
It would be ... great, but who am I kidding.
I've been considering some sort of anger management class.
Or just flat out asking my doctor about a medication.
The smallest things set me off, and I'm constantly pissed off.